it just gets worse and worse. :( so i did go for my run, and I did stay within my calorie limit yesterday and i felt great actually not hungry, i was really happy. and today was a good day too for the most part. and then i got a craving for ice cream. and everything got shot to hell. and then i had wheat thins. and beer. and popsicles. and i honestly don’t know why i binged because i wasn’t hungry at all. it’s almost as if i have stronger will power when i’m starving than when i’m not. anyways i ate so much i felt really uncomfortable, so i made myself sick. now, i’d never done it before, and i didn’t really think in all honesty that i’d be able to because i have a really great (i guess) gag reflex. but i did it, not much, but enough to relieve the discomfort. only now i’m afraid with the way that i am that it will become a habit…. no pictures today because i’m embarrassed enough as it is. I promise some tomorrow. goodnight.